I am a complete idiot, I don’t why i’m here. ok, maybe I’m smart but I can’t motivate myself to do anything or actually study well or make good decisions or being efficient and without that being simply smart is worthless. and when i’m saying i’m not smart in this way I don’t just mean “not smart for ucla” I mean not smart for anything. i’m sure that people at much less competitive schools are far far far more competent than me…..

she is so ridiculously beautiful and I am totally infatuated and I think about her so much and this really doesn’t make any sense